15 years today!

I woke up today realizing its been 15 years since you left this world
16 years since we last spoke or I last saw your face
You left me at such an early age, making me a husband, father, brother and friend
As the years have gone on, the responsibilities have been greater
Each year I face a new challenge and I ask myself how would you have dealt with it?
As much as I thank God for the successes, I dread my failures and how they've been perceived
The times when my mistakes were tolerated, seem to have faded
these days I am made to pay for the simplest Mis-judgements
Mummy has cooled off (I bet you are in shock)...I have taken over the role of putting people in check
Your sons are now men and I must say they are all bigger than myself
I dread the day I try to get them to tow the line and they stomp on me
Your little princess is getting married...watching her grow has been an experience
The mistakes I've made have prepared me adequately for a daughter of my own

Anyway I thought I should drop a line, telling you I miss you
I realize you are in a better place but it's hard to believe you are not a phone call or a flight away.
Adieu daddy....I miss you terribly.