Conclusion: Case of the Ex!!

Let me start off by thanking those that have left me comments in regards to the post about my ex (forgive me for not responding to each comment but I feel this post will cover much of the comments made). I must say some of the comments got me cracking up, others got me thinking and a couple got me searching...in all, great comments.

A number of people have asked why we broke up in the first place. At the time I broke up with my ex, I realized I had to make a decision because things were getting wayyyy serious and jewelry stores had become a favorite past time. The snag was the fact that despite my prayers and prompting, we weren't evenly yoked. She was a staunch catholic and wasn't willing to consider anything else. I on the other hand knew that I had to draw closer to God and needed to live a lifestyle that was of true worship to Him. In the midst of these thoughts, you also had extended family calling and actually stating their reservation about our relationship (they thought I jazzed her or something... I guess its true when they say Love is like drinking from a fire hose...it leaves you dazed ...I was so in love and so was she... my family actually thought she jazzed me as well...we couldnt keep away from each other..not even for a day..lol).

Anyway I bet you guys are surprised that I am blogging about a conclusion prior to my trip... well I won't be meeting my ex again. One thing I failed to mention in my last post was the fact that myself and P.I had asked God to intercede if He felt she wasn't the one for me... I must confess I struggled to say that prayer but I am glad I did... we spoke this morning and decided it was best we don't meet up...we spoke about what we shared and why it was special, she understood why I made the decision I made (our break up)... I understood why she did the things she did after we broke up and actually confirmed a suspicion I had at the time. Let me say the conversation was great! Great because through it all I had that peace that passeth understanding... I mean I wasn't going to argue or force issues... noooooooo ... Today God confirmed His word "I will always be there with you, even till the end of time"... today I realized that despite my doubts of late based on the battles I am currently facing, despite my flaws and my short-comings, God is still God and He still loves me dearly. He has a design for my life that beats anything ever created or that I could plan. I re-dedicate my life to Him and I can't wait to see what else He has in store for me.

As for my ex, I'll always love her for who she was to me and what she meant to me... she allowed herself to be used by God and as tough as the decision was today, she was still selfless in encouraging me...how many women can stand and say if they dont have their way they'd still be a source of encouragement.

Today our chapter ends and I plan to start afresh.

In the past few weeks (since the start of summer), I have regressed emotionally. I found myself giving into the simplest temptations and at a point almost giving up on my faith. It's funny because I actually read something a friend wrote about a persons walk with God and I sat hurt that I had let God and myself down and given someone the opportunity to ever doubt my beliefs. Oh well the bible says "old things have passed away; behold all things are new" ... "though sorrow may last for a night but joy comes in the morning"...thank you Lord for this morning... thanks for a new start...

I bet many are wondering how I plan to proceed...well I'll take some time off to re-discover myself....take some time off to re-discover the voice of the Lord... take some time off to remember who I am and why I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Let the redeemed of the Lord say Amen!

To my ex (I know you are reading this...lol...silly girl)... Thanks for understanding, thanks for being the person that you are...thanks for everything...I wish you and bloke the very best life has to offer... enjoy the moment...like the lyrics to a song I remember "these are the times we all wish for the moment when less means so much more". Remember to keep this blog to yourself or else I am putting you on full blast and that includes pictures... NO! its not a threat...it will be real!...lol

To those that might care ... We will only experience this life but once... if today be the end, lets satisfy all that we desire...so that when the day of judgement comes (and Oh yes that day will come!) we can smile knowing well that we enjoyed it to the fullest... and if not for that but let's enjoy it to the fullest so that when the kids come rolling in and they come of age, we'll have quality and truthful stories of the joys and the pains life brings and the love that heals.

I am healed!

Take care y'all. I cherish y'all even though I know you not.